I Have Issues…
I have issues. Of the anger variety. Like, there are some things that REALLY bug me… about myself and other people. And they’re stupid, but I can’t help it. These things just really irritate me. Let me give you an example. I can’t stand it when people don’t text back. Or they take thirty minutes and all they say is “LOL.” Okay, so maybe I’m weird, but I don’t think that a conversation made up of “yeah,” “Okay,” “lol”, “Yeah,” is a very good conversation. And you know what makes it worse? The fact that I text them again. Say I’ve sent them a message and they haven’t replied and it’s been forever… I’ll send them another message to make sure they’re still there… I hate that! I wish I could just act like I don’t care but I can’t. GEEZ!!
And the fact that I can’t get mad right. Like, when I get mad, you know I’m mad. I can’t just have the cold brooding mad where I give you the cold shoulder. I have to lay it all out. Yell, scream, throw things. I hate that also. And if I get mad at someone and I try to walk off and they don’t follow me, I’ll go back to them. And if someone else walks off on me, I have to follow them. I hate that also! I don’t have the strength or self control to ignore someone. And I know I’m just giving them their grim satisfaction when I run after them, but I can’t help it! UUUUGGHHHH! It makes me so mad.
And I’m also a jealous person. That makes me mad too. I’m constantly paranoid that i’m not my best friend’s best friend. She’s going to kill me for saying this, but it’s true. I’m always worried that she’s happier when she’s around other people. But I’m crazy and I think we’ve established that.
So anyway, I feel better for venting. So I’m good now. The end.
